Bryan Thot

I am a single gay male that struggles with life. I am an empath so I struggle with the current human experience. I lost my human last Christmas my grandma. As I was sitting in her favorite chair sobbing I over heard my dad tell someone I was going to hell. I really wanted to climb in with my grams. I did not talk to my dad and then a year later he passed. At his funeral I learned from my sister that my mother never told her or my dad that I tried to end my life 15 years prior. When I was in the hospital my mom called once and said if I succeeded I would have gone to hell. I never heard from no one else and no one came to the hospital. So i kept my distance from them since they did not care. So my mom kept me from a relationship with my dad and sister because she was ashamed of my attempt. So I do not know what unconditional love is and am not sure why I am here. I got laid off and lost my car.